~莎莎 around the world~

I'm in a terrible mood right now~such as thunderstorm around me!!

It seems back to few months ago~~

can't eat, sleep...need alcohol makes me forget something, away from real me~

I delete all of your messages, number, letters...

so now, I don't have any methods can contact you......

I don't need anyone's consolation...cos it makes me look like a loser......

hope I can disappear from here....but don't know where I can stay....

you said everything think about yourself....it's not called "selfish".....

it's in oder to survive......

you always have good excauses for eveything that you want to do or not to do....

always make me don't know how to retort you.....

I think we are tatlly different, education, background, attitude,nationality.....etc...

really really regret to start this relationship....

I should back to original simple life asap.....

thanks for David.....your phone call makes me feel better...you always nice to me.....

I hope I can get a cuddle from you....I know it's impossible...

cos australia is really really far from the U.K.

I didn't tell you the real reason why I feel so sad.....

But you still try to cheer me up....

if without you......I don't know how could I survive from this mood.........

I need be strong.......